Ok, I’ll admit that I forgot this blog existed. I think that might be a good thing, because maybe it means I’m happy. Last semester was filled with wonderful friends, good grades, very funny moments and a new puppy. (If you haven’t seen pictures, which is unlikely, she’s a white French bulldog and my dad likes her which is weird?) It was a really good semester, although the end got bittersweet since my friends and I were all seperating to go abroad to different countries. Moving out consisted a lot of tears and discussing countries to meet up in.
Now that I’ve been in Denmark for almost three months, things have started to get very good again. After being here for two weeks, which was obviously a difficult adjustment, I got this eye infection where I couldn’t really see out of my eyes because they were oozing stuff and then they swelled shut and I was quarantined for two days. It’s a miracle no one in my host family got it. While I was quarantined, our sweet dog Liffey died. She was the old droopy hound, and my mom had to put her down because we found out she had cancer and she was in a lot of pain. It was enourmously painful because I wouldn’t ever see my pup again, and I wasn’t there to help. It was a very bad few days.
Two weeks later, my host family went on a killer vacation to Thailand, and I was left by myself in the house. I had plans for friends to take turns staying with me, and I was going to be productive and have fun with people I adore. However, Denmark hated me and wanted me dead, so I naturally got a stomach virus and was in bed for two days while I was trying to write a paper and also not break into a million pieces. That week was also bad. That weekend I went on my first trip that wasn’t with my school. I went to Brussels with one of my best friends, and it was so beautiful and sunny and obviously chocolate was involved. However, the morning I was scheduled to go back to Copenhagen, I got a call from my host family saying that there was a fire in my room- I swear you can’t make these things up. Thank god no one was there, and the only damage was from smoke, so everything smelled horrible (still isn’t quite back to normal). My friend’s host dad picked me up from the train station back in Copenhagen, I went to my house to get my things for school and some clothes, and then stayed the night with two friends that live two towns over.
My host family got back the next day, and I got the rundown about insurance and the next steps. They are wonderful and so they moved me into the parent’s room after doing some rearranging. The next week consisted of a lot of washing clothes to see if the smell would come out and packing things away for the insurance company to get to clean. The insurance company still has everything, which includes some of my shoes, clothes and my suitcases, and I’m not quite sure when they’ll be done.
I digress. Although the first seven weeks consisted of me not being able to handle my emotions, they were definitely filled with very fun times. I went to Ribe and Vejen in Western Denmark with my class, explored Copenhagen, and I got to go to Brussels, Oslo, Bruges, Budapest and London. I’ve made wonderful friends, eaten great food, and made some very fun memories. I saw my family, and my host family’s dog stopped growling at me whenever I got too close. We are now best friends.
The adjustment to being abroad isn’t what I thought it would be. Despite all of the bad luck, it was hard to live with a family that wasn’t mine. It was hard to motivate myself to do school work when I just wanted to watch Netflix and try to distract myself from the constant tightness in my chest. Even with all of that, I’m still happy to be here. I also recognize how lucky I am to be here. Studying abroad isn’t always partying and traveling, especially with the program that I’m in, but it also is worth the confusion and getting lost and making a fool of yourself by waiting at the wrong train for 40 minutes. Although there isn’t anything really easy about it, there’s something very reassuring about proving to myself that I can do it.